tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82850332685418937412023-11-15T07:18:29.193-08:00A Shade of Graycourtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-17935235252759228582013-03-29T23:23:00.001-07:002013-03-29T23:23:13.547-07:00Night and DayIt's Good Friday. I guess it's technically Saturday, but I haven't gone to bed yet, so I'm gonna count it. Right now our house is filled with the sound of snoring- Steve, Tate, and even our pug- Miss Maude. But a few hours ago it was anything but quiet around here. After a great dinner with family and a pit stop at Starbucks Steve and I came home with two tired kids- neither one was ready for bed. He took the baby and I wrestled Jane Gray. After a fight over pajamas and brushing teeth she settled into bed. I kissed her good night and started down the stairs. But halfway down I heard a tiny voice. "Mama, come back up here. I don't want to go to sleep." Typically this is a ploy for more play time, but tonight it seemed different- more sincere. Maybe I have leftover pregnancy hormones, but I caved. I agreed to lay down with my girl until she fell asleep. As I crawled up next to her she looked me in the eyes and repeated, "Mama, I don't want to go to sleep." I tried to tell Jane Gray about all of the fun plans we have for tomorrow- play time with cousins, church Easter egg hunt, lunch with Honey and Ya-Ya, etc. I said, "We have to go through the nighttime to get to the morning." She was satisfied enough with this answer and was out like a light. But I laid in that tiny twin bed thinking.<br />
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The night can be dark, lonely, and scary. We resist going to sleep. We fight it. It's not until sheer exhaustion takes over that we will finally submit to slumber. What is it that causes such fear? And the reality is that if we don't have it, we won't get to the morning.<br />
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I have several friends and acquaintances who are facing the night right now. I'm talking about honest-to-goodness; pitch-black darkness- loss of children, cancer, terminal illness- the stuff that grown-up nightmares are made of. For these friends, the night has nothing to do with a 24-hour cycle. (Oh! If it were that easy!) This is day-in and day-out trauma- the kind that leaves you permanently scarred. To be quite honest, all of them have more faith than I do. It's true. They are honest about their fear of the future, and they don't sugar-coat their grief. But in each individual instance they have used these events to highlight the redeeming love of Jesus. It's beautiful and tragic all at once. Not one of them (or any of us for that matter) could prevent the night from coming. It will fall upon every one of us. But they refuse to turn away from the only One who can bring the light.<br />
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As Easter approaches, I can't help but think about my friends and Jesus. The night has fallen, but they are not shaken. Afraid? Yes. Hurting? Yes. Praying to be spared? Yes. Willing to submit to the night in order to see the morning? Definitely. I actually heard one of these mother's pray, "Not my will, but yours be done, Lord." (Just to give you perspective, her infant daughter is dying of a terminal illness. It doesn't get darker than that.) Jane Gray isn't alone here is she? No one wants to go through the night. But are there any of us who are willing to miss the dawn?<br />
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There is no night that can prevent the dawn. There is no darkness that can stop the light. The tragedy of the crucifixion cannot overcome the power of the cross. Death has been defeated. The darkness may last for the night, but joy comes in the morning.<br />
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He has Risen! The morning is here!<br />
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<br />courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-83756191401664333692012-05-10T19:37:00.001-07:002012-05-10T19:37:21.806-07:00God Save the Christians<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Sometimes it's hard for me to love people. Then I listen to this song. If you haven't heard it yet, check it out on iTunes. </span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><b>Jesus Friend of Sinners</b></span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Jesus Friend of sinners we have strayed so far away</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">We cut down people in your name but the sword was never ours to</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">swing</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Jesus friend of sinners the truth's become so hard to see</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">The world is on their way to You but they're tripping over me</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Always looking around but never looking up I'm so double minded</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">A plank eyed saint with dirty hands and a heart divided</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Oh Jesus friend of sinners</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Let our hearts be led by mercy</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Help us reach with open hearts and open doors</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Oh Jesus friend of sinners break our hearts for what breaks yours</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Jesus friend of sinners the one who's writing in the sand</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Make the righteous turn away and the stones fall from their hands</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Help us to remember we are all the least of thieves</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Let the memory of Your mercy bring your people to their knees</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Nobody knows what we're for only what we're against when we</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">judge the wounded</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">What if we put down our signs crossed over the lines and love like</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">You did</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Oh Jesus friend of sinners</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span></i></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Open our eyes to the world at the end of our pointing fingers</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Let our hearts be led by mercy</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Help us reach with open hearts and open doors</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Oh Jesus friend of sinners break our hearts for what breaks yours</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">You love every lost cause; you reach for the outcast</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">For the leper and the lame; they're the reason that You came</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Lord I was that lost cause and I was the outcast</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span></i></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">But you died for sinners just like me a grateful leper at Your feet.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;"><br /></span></i></span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-border-horizontal-spacing: 2px; -webkit-border-vertical-spacing: 2px; font-size: 12px;">Always good to be reminded that Jesus saves Christians too!</span></span><br />
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(I promise to write on this blog again one day!) I didn't re-copy the link, but you can find it on my last blog update. Check it out if you have time.courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-88567305204024605882011-11-29T18:42:00.000-08:002011-11-29T18:50:09.230-08:00Cheater, cheater, pumpkin eater!Hello friends! I have a confession. . . I have been cheating on you. Yes, it's true. I have been writing on another blog. I am a part of a ministry called Bruised Reed, and we work with women in the adult entertainment industry. We have a blog. . . you should check it out. <div><br /></div><div>PS - I've included the link below. So now you really have no excuse!<div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; border-collapse: collapse; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family:georgia;"><a href="http://bruisedreed.southlandchristian.org/" target="_blank" style="color: rgb(0, 0, 204); ">http://bruisedreed.<wbr>southlandchristian.org/</a></span></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; border-collapse: collapse; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; border-collapse: collapse; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; border-collapse: collapse; "><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="border-collapse: collapse; font-size: small;"><br /></span></div></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-78535236047359191002011-10-19T01:08:00.000-07:002011-10-24T20:40:48.587-07:00Blessings to AllIt's 3:45 am and raining and I am awake rocking a precious; sleeping baby girl. (Well, I guess she's more precious now that she's back asleep!) It's one of those moments you wait for all day. She's warm and snuggly and sleeping soundly. The scent of lavander baby shampoo still fresh from her bath several hours earlier. These are those precious moments that I would not trade for anything in the world. These times make the screaming times almost worth it. . . almost! <div><br /></div><div>Anyway, I guess since I was already awake, God thought it would be a great time for me to write. (I don't mean to sound too weird, but God and I have that kind of relationship.) You know the "wake you up in the middle of the night to do your deep thinking" kind of thing. I'll be honest, sometimes it really gets under my skin. It's not really convenient for me you know- but then again, neither is a screaming baby. </div><div><br /></div><div>In the last two weeks, I have gotten some great news. First, I received news that there is currently no detection of thyroid cancer left in my body. (Yay!) Second, a dear friend called the other day to tell us she had received $1,000 from an anonymous donor who wanted to contribute to our medical expenses. Steve and I were both shocked to say the least! Although our friends and family didn't know it, we had just received a bill for $936.00 that very week. When we received the news, it was sitting on our kitchen counter waiting to be paid! (It would have waited much longer too had our friend not been so generous!) </div><div><br /></div><div>With all the good news, I have caught myself saying things like, "God is so good!" and, "We are just so blessed!". Now, don't get me wrong. I do believe that God is the author and creator of all good things, and I will continue to give him praise for the recent "blessings" that have happened to our family. But I would be delusional if I acted like everything was perfect now! </div><div><br /></div><div>It seems recently I have heard an unusual amount of tragedy in the lives of people around me. Just in the last month I have spoken with someone who recently lost a baby at birth, I received an email from a friend about the death of a former classmate, and I got a call about a young woman diagnosed with cancer. And to be honest, I don't know exactly how to make sense out of that. What do you say to someone who has lost a child? What do you tell a mother who is afraid cancer will take her from the children she loves? Are there really words for that?</div><div><br /></div><div>So often we say things about God's faithfulness and goodness when we are good. But is God any less God when things are bad? Does that mean he is less faithful? Are we then less blessed? </div><div><br /></div><div>I was in the car yesterday and I heard a song on the radio. I'm not sure of the title, but the lyrics said this:</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">"What do I know of you who spoke me into motion?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Where have I even stood but the shore along your ocean?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Are you fire? Are you fury?</div><div style="text-align: center;">Are you sacred? Are you beautiful?</div><div style="text-align: center;">So what do I know? What do I know of holy?"</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Don't you want to ask God that sometimes? (I really hope you said yes. I would be terribly embarrassed if it was just me!) Don't you ever want to say, "What are you? Are you good or not?" In my mind it goes like this: SAFE + COMFORTABLE = GOOD. Unfortunately, that equation doesn't work out so well in the reality of God. If that were the case, where would you put the fire? What do you do with the fury? And let's not even talk about sacred- I don't think our finite minds have even begun to scratch the surface of that one! </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">You know tonight, God took an inconvenient situation (screaming baby/ tired mama) and made it into something precious. I would not have chosen a screaming baby at 3:45 in the morning. But I also wouldn't dare trade that beautiful moment of sweet silence. Was it comfortable? No. Would I have initally chosen it? Never. Did the God of all Creation turn it into something beautiful? Yes. So, maybe I am "blessed" after all. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-16935829389698985792011-09-27T14:34:00.000-07:002011-09-27T18:11:50.829-07:00The F-WordI am sitting in the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Nuclear</span> Medicine Department of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Markey</span> Cancer Center at University of Kentucky Hospital. Gray <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">cinder block</span> walls, caution signs, warnings about radiation, and doctors in lab coats surround me. I see bald heads, IV poles, spaceship-like <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">scanning</span> machines with the name SIEMENS printed in teal lettering. It's like a sterile walking grave yard. Everyone is alive (which is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">really</span> good), but <i>life</i> isn't the word that comes to mind.) <div><br /></div><div>Let's just face it. I'm scared. There. I said it. Now it's out on the page for all of the world to see. (Well at least for you to see.) I have finally mustered up the strength to face the inevitable - FEAR -The ugliest four letter F- word I can think of. (And you thought I was going to say something else! Shame on you!). I'm sad to say that of all the F-words I can think of, this is the one I have the most trouble owning up to. <div><br /></div><div>I've been in this situation three times now. It's not new. The first time I was here I was inexplicably confident. (I think I was just naive.) The second time I was here, I was irritated. I was annoyed with cancer's inconvenient impact on my life. But this time it's different. I don't want to be here. I'm afraid of the medicine I may or may not have to take depending on the results of my scans. I know how sick I'll feel if I have another dose of radiation. (Even though the radiologist will tell me that it's all in my head.) I'm terrified of the painfully lonely 72 hours of isolation. I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">acutely</span> aware of the time I'll spend away from my husband and daughter. I know that I'll worry for the next 6 months about the next 6 months. And I'll always be concerned about the long term effects of radioactive iodine on my body. <div><br /></div><div>Fear. It's such a small word, but it's impact is so big. It's paralyzing. At times fear has the strength of 10,000 wild horses- nothing else has such an impact on my life. I mean, it's crazy that something so small can do so much damage. So, now I've said it. At least this time I'm not faking it. (There's another F-word for you! Unfortunately, I'm kind of comfortable with that one. I know how to fake it.) Fear, the very word seems so weak and so uncontrollable. </div><div><br /></div><div>So, here I am sitting in the hospital surrounded by fear. And then I hear a familiar voice. Sue. We go way back. Sue has been my radiology tech for each scan since last August. She and her colleague, Stephen, rule the roost in the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Nuclear</span> Medicine Department as far as I'm concerned. They keep everyone informed and up-to-date and they do it all with a smile on their faces. They are gentle souls - kind. As I hear Sue's voice, I am calmed. She calls my name and escorts me to the all too familiar spaceship/ scanner. As I settle in for my photo shoot Sue wraps me in a warm blanket and tapes my feet together. (It's <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">OK</span>. I'm used to it.) And as if on cue James Taylor begins to play in the background. Sue remembers that I love this CD. I ask for it every time I visit for my week long rendezvous. These seemingly unremarkable acts of kindness lead me to another four letter word - HOPE. </div><div><br /></div><div>Isn't it amazing how you just need a teeny-tiny bit of hope in order to feel better? It's like a miracle drug. (I wish that's all you needed to cure cancer!) Sue's sweet spirit gives me hope that there is life beyond this dungeon; that there's life beyond this fear. And in a split second, I feel it - the other f-word - FAITH. Instantly I am reminded of the verses I read just yesterday in the book of Isaiah. </div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">"This is what the LORD says-</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">your Redeemer, who formed you in the womb:</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">I am the LORD, </span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">who has made all things, </span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">who alone stretched out the heavens,</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;">who spread out the earth by myself,</span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><br /></span></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who foils the signs of false prophets</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and makes fools of diviners,</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who overthrows the learning of the wise</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and turns it to nonsense,</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who carries out the words of his servants</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and fulfills the predictions of his <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">messengers</span>,</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who says of Jerusalem, 'It shall be inhabited,'</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>of the towns of Judah, 'They shall be built,'</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and of their ruins, 'I will restore them,'</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who says to the watery deep, 'Be dry,</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and I will dry up your streams,'</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>who says of Cyrus, 'He is my shepherd</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and I will accomplish all that I please; </i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>he will say of Jerusalem, "Let it be rebuilt,"</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>and of the temple, "Let its foundations be laid." '</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i>Isaiah 44:24-28</i></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small;"><i><br /></i></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">My scans from today are inconclusive. I don't know what will happen to me tomorrow. I may have another treatment awaiting me. I may have another 72-hour isolation period in my very near future. I might get so sick that I don't eat for two more days. I just don't know. I am still afraid, but I am not gripped by fear. I want good news tomorrow. I'd be a liar if I said otherwise. I don't know one person in the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Markey</span> Cancer Center who doesn't want the same thing. But I do know this: Sue will greet me with a smile and a warm blanket. James Taylor will serenade me softly while a gigantic machine takes pictures of my insides. And The God of all Creation will continue to reign over it all. </span></div><div><br /></div></div></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-1045647154824469952011-04-22T20:38:00.000-07:002011-04-22T22:09:35.486-07:00Amazing GraceGrace: being pulled over by a police officer for going 52 in a 30 and driving away without a ticket.<br /><br />In case you're wondering, that's exactly what happened to me tonight. Actually, my husband was driving, but neither one of us had any idea that we had crossed some kind of imaginary line between the interstate and my parent's neighborhood. Instead of a 45 mph speed limit, we were now in the 35 mph zone! (Yes, I realize that we would have been guilty of speeding in either case, but 52 in a 45 sounds much more reasonable.) Anyway, this little mishap got me thinking on a deeper level. Scary. I know.<br /><br />Today is Good Friday and a lot of us are probably considering the death of Jesus on the cross. At this point in history we are able to see how gracious and loving his act was- we have been saved from death; we have received the gift of life. But, I can't help wondering how this event might have been perceived by people (even believers) while it was in progress.<br /><br />Imagine the gruesomeness of a death by hanging, not to mention the embarrassment and shame of it all. We know from scripture that many people were already thinking Jesus must be a fraud. Surely a king wouldn't die with such disgrace. I don't know if any of you are like me, but I'm telling you right now, I would have been devastated to see anyone suffering to such an extent. And I can't even begin to think what that grief would have felt like had I thought this man was supposed to be my Savior- the Son of God- the promised King. I'm not trying to tell on myself here, but I would have been the first one to say, "What are you doing? This is wrong; this isn't how it's supposed to be! Show them who you are! Save yourself and us!"<br /><br />Think about it. If the crucifixion happened today, most of us would have been trying to talk Jesus down from the cross!<br /><br />It makes sense now, but at the time it was tragic. Looking back we might all agree that it was worth it. We are saved- free. But nothing could have been darker for humanity than the hours between Friday night and Sunday morning. The hope was gone. The Savior was dead. Heaven and Earth literally shook with grief. Perhaps we could consider this idea the next time we are trapped between unspeakable tragedy and unbelievable joy. Maybe one day we will look back on these hours of life and see that the very thing that saved us was the thing that made the least sense- the thing that brought the most pain. We probably wouldn't have chosen the road that Jesus walked down, but none of us could have saved mankind either!<br /><br />Maybe the true definition of grace is a Savior who knows enough NOT to give us what we ask for and instead provides us with the one thing we never knew we always needed.courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-67394172259611813012011-03-18T18:14:00.000-07:002011-03-18T20:14:07.629-07:00Cry BabyI don't really like emotions. Maybe I should rephrase that- I don't like <i>my</i> emotions. I'm a therapist and all day long I encourage people to explore how <i>they</i> feel about everything, but I totally shut down at the first sign of personal emotionality. And if I happen to reach the point of tears, there better not be anyone around! (I live by the words, "If you have to cry, go outside.") Lately, this has been a daunting task because life seems to be beyond my control (surprise, surprise). Just this week, I had to lock myself in the bathroom at work so I could get a 5 minute reprieve from life! <div><br /></div><div>Right now my father-in-law is undergoing radiation treatment for cancer, I have three co-workers who have parents with cancer, and just last week my dear family member underwent surgery to remove a lump in her breast. On Wednesday my best friend called to tell me that her mother, a vibrant; healthy woman, was admitted to the ER for disorganized speech and unusual behavior. Eventually doctors determined that she had a brain bleed, and just today we learned that her overall prognosis is still unknown- her life may be forever altered. </div><div><br /></div><div>It's not just personal friends who are being affected by tragedy. Have you turned on the T.V. lately? Egypt, Lybia, Japan- have you ever seen so much chaos? So much pain? This morning I had to turn the news off. I just couldn't listen to anymore. I was almost in tears (again) seeing all those people searching for signs of life- signs of hope. I literally felt physical pain just watching those images. In that moment, I wished I could ask God why. I just wanted to scream, "Come on! You've got to be kidding me! This isn't how it's supposed to be! Where are you? Save us!"</div><div><br /></div><div>It's close to Easter and I can't help but see some irony in all of this. These days seem so dark, so heavy, so hopeless. I wonder if there were similar events going on in Jesus' day? Could they feel the tension and fear? Was the world literally crying out to be saved? And what about when Jesus <i>was</i> finally nailed to that cross? Can you imagine how that must have devastated the believers- they thought their one hope was gone. They were just searching for signs of life- signs of hope. They may have even been saying, "I thought you were gonna save us!"</div><div><br /></div><div>I heard a song on the radio yesterday that brought me to tears. (Do you see a theme here?) The words are so beautiful and I've had them on repeat as my own personal coping skill to make it through these difficult days: </div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><blockquote>"Oh death where is your sting? Oh hell where is your victory? Oh church come stand in the light! Our God is not dead- He's alive! He's alive!"</blockquote></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: left;">These days are dark, and there are lots of reasons to be anxious and afraid. But maybe during this Easter season we can choose to stand confidently in the light of salvation and proclaim: We are not afraid. We are alive- and so is our God! (And if that won't make you cry, I don't know what will!)</div><div style="text-align: left;"><i><br /></i></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-87513615118070632882011-02-28T18:53:00.000-08:002011-03-01T19:53:30.089-08:00Got Milk?<div>Do you ever have those times in life when you want something, but you don't know exactly what it is? I have felt like that alot lately. For over a year now, Steve and I have been in the painful process of learning how to take one day at a time- never able to look much beyond our own two feet. It's like walking in pitch black darkness and praying the entire time that you don't fall flat on your face! By nature, this does not come easily to me. (But then again, I doubt it comes easily to any of us.) I want to know the plan- Who, What, When, Where- and I definitely want to know how long it will take! When I can't answer these questions I start to panic.</div><div><br /></div><div>I was with Jane Gray the other day, and I had to put her down so I could pour some milk in her sippy cup. I knew she was thirsty, but I grossly underestimated her level of patience. The second her feet hit the floor, she flung herself on the ground and began hysterical sobbing! Now at first I thought she was just faking it- you know, trying to get my attention. After all, she does have some of her mother's flare for the dramatic. But then I saw huge alligator tears rolling down her cheeks. All I wanted to do was to get her something to drink. Obviously, she took this to mean that I was totally unconcerned with her plight!</div><div><br /></div><div>Thinking back on that, I realized that I'm so much more like her than I'd ever want to admit. She truly believed, in that moment, that I had abandoned her- that she had been forever forgotten by the very woman who gave her life! (I mean seriously? I love her more than <i>even I</i> can describe with words!) But how often do I find myself doing that very same thing- making the same assumptions about God. I assume that my situations are so insignificant that even God must be unaware- I have been forever forgotten and left to thirst for eternity so to speak. (Did I mention the flare for the dramatic?) </div><div><br /></div><div>Steve and I had the song <i>Great is Thy Faithfulness</i> played at our wedding. Maybe God knew something that we were unaware of in that moment. We were going to need all the faith we could find in the first few years of our marriage. But faith isn't just something that we inherently possess. It's developed in a person through experience. One day Jane Gray will figure out that even though I have to put her down at times, I will never abandon her. Eventually, she will see the connection and realize that I'm actually getting her something she needs, and as soon as it's ready, I will give it to her. Maybe her mother will grow up too- maybe one day I'll realize that it is through the hardest times in life that God is preparing something for me that will be delivered upon it's completion.</div><div><br /></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-71357094976461309252011-01-31T21:00:00.000-08:002011-01-31T21:00:09.603-08:00Naked on the StageI'm friends with strippers. You probably didn't know that about me. I don't really want to get into specifics here, but I will tell you that I do not dance. Now that we've gotten that settled, let's move on. <div><br /></div><div>The other night, I was with one of the dancing ladies, and she was talking about the pressures of life: parenting issues, financial stress, relational disappointment. As I listened to her share her story, I began to try and put myself in her 4 inch stiletto heels. Here's a mom trying to do what she can to get by, working at the only job she knows, thinking about how her choices will impact the life of the child she loves so much. Granted, we come from two very different perspectives, but aren't we all pretty much the same? Aren't those the kinds of questions that keep me awake at night? It got me thinking.</div><div><br /></div><div>Before our daughter was born, my husband and I decided that I would work part time once the baby arrived. I've always dreamed of staying home and raising lots of kids. Fortunately, a part time position became available and I was able to cut my hours back to 2 days a week. <i>Unfortunately</i> I was later diagnosed with cancer and our medical bills skyrocketed. At that point we had to make another decision: increase my hours at work or go into debt. So, we prayed about it, we found a great daycare, and I began working four days a week. </div><div><br /></div><div>I would be lying if I said that I don't think about this decision daily. Will I look back on this time and regret not being there? Could we have survived on such a small income? Would it have been better to live with <i>some</i> debt? In the end, we did what we believed was best for our family. But would everyone support my decision? Certainly there are people out there- friends even- who may question my decision. Shoot, some would down-right disagree with me! And there's still the possibility that I just flat-out got it wrong. What if my limited mind was unable to imagine the endless possibilities that God would have provided had I made a different choice- taken a leap of faith? </div><div><br /></div><div>Now before everybody gets their panties in wad, let me be clear. I am not trying to compare working moms of any kind with being immoral. (That's not my theology.) And, I'm not trying to rationalize behavior. (I believe in a God of holiness.) What I am trying to consider is that most of us are attempting to live the best life we can, and along the way we must make hard choices. Sometimes we get it right, sometimes we get it wrong, and sometimes we don't know at all. But, <i>when </i>we know better we are called to <i>do </i>better. Maybe it would help if we all could remember that in some way or another, we are all naked on the stage.</div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-39426446264196126652011-01-10T17:39:00.000-08:002011-01-18T19:47:40.627-08:00Jesus Sold SeparatelyThe night before my family celebrated Christmas, my sister and I were assisting <i>Santa Claus</i> and setting out some toys for the next morning. Amanda had gotten the Little People manger scene for both of our girls. As we opened the boxes and set out all the pieces I noticed that baby Jesus was missing. Shocked, I asked Amanda to look through her package. To our surprise we had only purchased half of the manger scene. Apparently, you have to buy the actual scene (i.e. stable, animals, palm trees, inn keeper, etc.) but the characters are sold separately! Can you believe it? I mean, who cares about the stable- without the baby Jesus you're pretty much stuck with a barn. Jesus, Mary, Joseph, those are the principal players. That's what we were really after...Right? Merry Christmas girls, have fun playing with the palm trees...Seriously?<div><br /></div><div>I believe that this Little People stuff is dirty business. How tricky can you be? They're just preying upon sincere, albeit slightly distracted, mamas trying to get all of their Christmas shopping done. If we had actually paid attention to the set, we might have noticed the lack of key figures and believe-you-me we would have paid a pretty penny for the other half. (Still will when they get it back in stock!) The toy makers know this, so they split up the stuff you really want. That way, you pay double- they <i>make</i> double!</div><div><br /></div><div>Now, the Little People drama is <i>little </i>business in the grand scheme of things, but I have recently encountered a scheme of a much larger magnitude. Steve and I purchased our used Passat station wagon about a year and a half ago. Since that time, we have had multiple problems with it, but I love driving it...when it works! About a week before Christmas, (and a day before we were leaving to go out of town), Steve took our car to be looked at because the check engine light came on. After running some diagnostic tests, the mechanic told us that we most likely had an <i>oil sludge</i> problem that was particular to our make and model of Passat wagon. The recommendation was to take the car to the Volkswagon dealership in order to be serviced. </div><div><br /></div><div>To make a VERY LONG story short, we spent the majority of our two-week Christmas break haggling with the local Volkswagon dealership as well as VW customer service regarding work and payment. Apparently, there was a class action settlement regarding our make and model of car due to the <i>oil sludge</i> problem, BUT the settlement did not cover our year! According to the company, the 2005 model of the car did not exhibit the same <i>issues</i> as the previous years. Now, the earlier repairs on the car we have paid out of pocket without much fuss, but these recent repairs have cost us $2000 plus the $500 dollars we paid out of pocket to rent a car to get home for the holidays- Not to mention that the repairs took almost 3 weeks to complete! AND would you believe that today I took the car back in for more work! Yes, my car needs another $500 worth of work! </div><div><br /></div><div>Now, I have tried to be polite about this whole thing (I am from Mississippi after all, and we have standards.), but enough is enough. Steve and I have both asked Volkswagon corporate to make this right. We have expressed our love for our car and our desire to remain loyal customers in the future <i>if </i>this problem is resolved. Unfortunately, phone call after phone call leads to more frustration and disappointment. Up until now not one employee has taken any responsibility or offered consolation. However, we did get an offer for $1000 off a new car- yeah right! I am posting this today as a warning for all the consumers out there. Be careful-Sometimes we don't get exactly what we paid for. Sometimes, Jesus is sold separately!</div><div><br /></div><div> </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-65484446201773014092011-01-03T17:54:00.000-08:002011-01-03T19:53:26.918-08:00ResolvedIt is officially 2011. Wow! Where did the time go? Now, I already know what you're thinking. I haven't updated this thing in about 2 years. I know that is a ridiculously long time, but a lot of things have happened since then. Shortly after I began blogging, I found out I was pregnant. If you've been there, then you know how quickly your life changes. Suddenly, my love of words was replaced by a love of SLEEP and a constant feeling of nausea. And my free time was taken up by everything baby. <div><br /></div><div>Once pregnancy was over the real mama drama began. When my daughter was about 4 months old I found a strange lump in my neck. I'm naturally paranoid and having a new baby certainly didn't help, but when my husband noticed it, I really freaked out. To make a painfully long story short, I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer. Two surgeries and one radioactive iodine treatment later, I am officially in remission. So, 2009 was blissfully happy and 2010 kicked me in the face. Hopefully 2011 will bring us back to balance.<div><br /></div><div>Now that I've explained my absence, I hope y'all will forgive me and we can move on to the more important issues at hand. RESOLUTIONS! We all know of things in our life that we'd like to change, and January 1st gives us a good excuse to accomplish them- or at least attempt to! After thoughtful consideration, my family and I have identified specific areas to target this year.</div><div><br /></div><div>Health: Complete P90X. I ambitiously started this torture treatment last year, but like I said baby, cancer, blah, blah, blah. Beach body take two!</div><div><br /></div><div>Family: Read to my little girl everyday. I tried to do this when she was a baby, but its difficult to read to a crying infant when you're trying to put her to sleep. It seemed much more idyllic in my head.</div><div><br /></div><div>Marriage: Date night returns. Like I mentioned earlier, 2010 was a round house kick to the face, and in the process romance was killed. In the words of Justin Timberlake we're bringing sexy back. (Sorry, Nana, if you're reading this!)</div><div><br /></div><div>Faith: Memorize scripture daily. I have a active spiritual life, but discipline gave way to sleep in 2010 and I'd like to correct that this year.</div></div><div><br /></div><div>Intellect: Blog. It helps out my mental functioning to form complete sentences related to adult conversation. If I don't do this, I will become lost eternally in baby land and will forever speak Sesame Street. Hopefully I will show some level of consistency this year. I'd hate to get to 2013 and realize I'd abandoned my blog- AGAIN!</div><div><br /></div><div>Just Because: Learn Spanish.</div><div><br /></div><div>So there's my list. Happy New Year to all! I'd love to hear about your resolutions. Share if you dare... </div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-6990238915291391362009-04-08T17:31:00.000-07:002009-04-08T18:40:58.241-07:00Feminism Revisited<div>I have not blogged in about two months. However, that does not mean that my mind wasn't running wild with thoughts for new entries. I've been considering the topic of feminism for quite some time. Since the release of the new Eminem video (which portrays Sarah Palin as a sex toy without anything to offer other than her anatomy),<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 11px; "> </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"> decided today was as good a time as any. Obviously there will continue to be assaults on femininity by ignorant, angry men as long as the world turns, but what is remarkable to me is the war that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">women</span> have waged (and continue to wage) against their own kind. There are a couple of major mistakes that the feminist movement has made. And I believe that if these are not corrected, the future of women is in jeopardy. The overall sense of anger that defines the "movement" as well as the attempt to emasculate the male gender are both characteristics that turn many women off as far as feminism is concerned.</span></div><div><br /></div>Why does the word feminism have to be so angry and hateful? Since when did feminist imply that women were anti conservative, anti makeup, anti motherhood, anti woman? It seems to me that in a pursuit for equality, some women have gone to the other end of the spectrum completely. We saw much of this anger displayed during the recent Presidential election. Women turned against their own kind in a psychotic rush to promote the Democratic agenda. Sarah Palin was called everything but a white woman in order to lessen her credibility with the American people. And the worst part of all of this is that the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">women</span> were the most vicious in their attacks. Both Hillary Clinton and Sarah Palin were attacked for their looks (Hillary was not pretty. Sarah was too pretty), their family life (Hillary was ridiculed for keeping her marriage together. Sarah was slammed for being a working mom.), and their ability to lead (Hillary was too emotional. Sarah was too folksy.) And many of these attacks were at the hands of women!! It is tragic to see prominent women go for the jugular when they disagree politically with a member of their own gender. It was like reliving High School with cameras rolling. All of us should recognize that we cut off our noses to spite our own faces... none of us won that fight. <div><br /></div><div><br /><div>The other major downfall of the "feminist movement" (I hope you can hear the sarcasm in my tone) is the unending attempt to make men look like complete idiots. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I actually consider myself a feminist in the most traditional sense of the word. I wholeheartedly believe in the ability of women to accomplish a great number of things (Presidency and Vice-Presidency included). However, I do not wish to castrate the male gender completely. Why do we always think that to elevate one race, gender, or people group we must bring others to their knees? Some of the most supportive people in my life have been men (my father, my uncle, and my husband to name a few). Without these men and the devotion that they have shown, I would not have pursued a Master's degree or a career. I am grateful for the role that they have played in my life and I would never try to diminish that in any way. Strong women are who they are because of strong male <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">and</span> female role models. Any one who says differently is mistaken (or mislead!). </span></div><div><br /></div><div>Basically the point is this, the word feminist has been hijacked by the left-wing, pro-choice, anti-conservative women who have a gigantic chip on their shoulder when it comes to the role of men in our society today. I believe that the smart girls need to take back a word that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">should</span> promote respect, equality, and justice for women and for humanity. It's time for us to revisit this idea so that our daughters and granddaughters don't have to be the sex symbols in rap videos or the target for irrational politicians with biased agendas. </div></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-172239068319988912009-02-07T09:48:00.000-08:002009-02-07T19:48:26.745-08:0025 ThingsSeveral of my friends have tagged me on Facebook in their 25 Things, and I've decided to give in to the peer pressure. So, for the first and last time, here's a silly little blog about me.<div><br /></div><div>1. I am really bad at the computer. The only reason that I got this blog started is because my friends Jenny Ruth and Andrew helped me set it up. I have to type this list on my blog because I can't figure out how to do it on Facebook... Sad.</div><div><br /></div><div>2. The best day of my life was my wedding day. I am always wishing that I could relive that day just one more time. Once, I put my dress back on and wore it around my house. (No one else was home.)</div><div><br /></div><div>3. The scariest thing I ever did was to move 10 hours away from my family to a state where I only knew one person. (B-Ray is the best!!)</div><div><br /></div><div>4. My house is old and I love it. I would rather live in an old house with character than a new house with modern comforts.</div><div><br /></div><div>5. When I was in 3rd grade I never talked. I would whisper answers to my best friend Jenna and she would tell our teacher what I said. (When I tell people that now they don't believe me.) </div><div><br /></div><div>6. Once I had a boyfriend compare me to a Krispy Kreme doughnut. (At the time I thought that was a good thing... Ugh! Stupid girl!!)</div><div><br /></div><div>7. I don't believe in government bailouts. </div><div><br /></div><div>8. When I'm in a wedding (mine or someone else's) I get a spray tan, whiten my teeth, wear fake eyelashes, have my hair done... the works! I think it's only right to go the extra mile when you're a bridesmaid. No one wants ugly wedding pictures!</div><div><br /></div><div>9. I have known since high school that I want to adopt children. </div><div><br /></div><div>10. I hated high school. I would NEVER go back... not for a million dollars!</div><div><br /></div><div>11. Cooking is my therapy. (My Aunt Joy passed on her love of cooking to me. My Uncle Malcolm gave me his passion for good wine!)</div><div><br /></div><div>12. Once I ate a piece of combo pie (peanut butter on top/ brownie on bottom) that was so good I almost cried. It was embarrassing.</div><div><br /></div><div>13. I would rather read a good book than watch T.V. I just finished a great one by a girl named Renee Altson called, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Stumbling Toward Faith.</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">I</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">t is not for the faint of hear</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">t</span>. </div><div><br /></div><div>14. My husband and I looked up the meaning of our names the other day. We laughed because mine said, "dweller by the dark stream". If you knew me, you'd think this was really funny. Sometimes I have a dark side.</div><div><br /></div><div>15. One time my boss told me that I am smarter than people give me credit for. (Is that a compliment?)</div><div><br /></div><div>16. I am a twin, but my sister and I live far apart. Sometimes we miss each other so much it hurts.</div><div><br /></div><div>17. After college I went to seminary. People there thought I was stupid because I wear makeup and talk with a southern accent. (Thanks to Jenn and Katie I stayed anyway.)</div><div><br /></div><div>18. Sometimes people think that I'm mean because I'm a registered Republican . (Secretly I tried to become a Democrat, but then I realized that I don't believe in big government.)</div><div><br /></div><div>19. I believe that people have the capacity to change if they really want to.</div><div><br /></div><div>20. My nephew was born at 27 weeks. A former Planned Parenthood nurse told me that he wouldn't be able to survive... He did.</div><div><br /></div><div>21. I love rescue animals. My husband and I have two dogs and a cat. They all sleep in the bed with us.</div><div><br /></div><div>22. I am a Christian. I hate when people talk about Christianity like it's a bad thing. I believe you can love God <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">and </span>people at the same time.</div><div><br /></div><div>23. I have some of the best friends in the world. I had 13 bridesmaids in my wedding, and I <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">love</span> each and every one of them! (Some people think that 13 bridesmaids is tacky... I think it's <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">southern.</span>)</div><div><br /></div><div>24. My mother-in-law has a cozy home. I love to visit her. We sit on the couch, by the fireplace, in our pajamas and drink coffee. </div><div><br /></div><div>25. My goal in life is to live close to my family again. The happiest times of my life involve spending time with people that I love. My family is the best!!</div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-90736861557423305552009-02-03T17:28:00.000-08:002009-02-03T18:46:30.743-08:00Baby BoomMany of you have already heard the story of the mother in California who recently gave birth to octuplets. I don't know about you, but I can't even begin to imagine how in the world that was possible! I have a tremendous amount of respect for this woman in that her physical strength alone has to be significantly above average in order to carry that many children at once.<div><br /></div><div>However, as someone who works with children in abuse situations, I am greatly concerned about the future of these eight children. Apparently, this is not a case of "natural conception". This mother already has six children who live in a three bedroom home along with their grandparents. Mom reportedly has no job and is living off of her parents' resources. Several news sources have also reported that the single 33-year-old mother is attempting to make money by becoming a "parenting expert". Now I don't know about you, but I can't imagine that a person choosing to have 14 children (eight by invitro fertilization) without the help of a significant other or a reliable source of income could be considered an expert at parenting. And to top it all off, she has reportedly seeking a career in television (reality TV to be exact) in order to provide for her family.</div><div><br /></div><div>I don't mean to sound judgmental toward this woman. But let's be clear, she has worked quite hard to bring <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">eight additional </span>children into the world when she is already having difficulty providing for the six that occupy <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">h</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">er parent's</span> home. (Sometimes people are victims of circumstance. Other times individuals create their own crises.)</div><div><br /></div><div>Now the reality is that this family will not be investigated by social services unless a report is made to the appropriate authorities. This sounds quite simple. However, the reality is that children have very few rights in this country. And this mother would have to do something pretty bad before outside agencies will intervene. I have heard more than my fair share of horror stories concerning the treatment of children in my state and those same stories are happening in <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">your</span> state as well. </div><div><br /></div><div>The reason that I am bringing this up is not to depress you, but to remind the Christian community that we have a responsibility here. We must intentionally invest ourselves in the lives of those around us. Instead of making this family a "freak show" that we watch on reality TV, let's invest in their real lives. Aren't we more that voyeurs waiting for this young woman to fail her family and herself? Now, we don't all live in California, but you can bet that there are families all around you that need help. What if we looked for people to connect with? What if we invested in their lives? </div><div><br /></div><div>The reality is that social services are trying to protect children, but they do a poor job at best. No government agency can provide the support that individual families need. The truth is that we would rather make the government responsible for the sick and poor and oppressed, but the reality is that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">WE</span> are responsible for those things. Social justice is important, but it cannot <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">replace </span>personal responsibility. This young mother's choices were unwise and the truth is that her children could pay the ultimate price. Let's not leave this in the hands of overwhelmed and under paid social workers. Let's live out what we believe.</div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-39472663821903781062009-01-31T20:30:00.000-08:002009-02-01T21:02:10.319-08:00The Yesterday ShowOnce upon a time in a land far away there was something called <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Today Show. </span>Sadly, the show died (along with the rest of journalism) when the evil NBC Empire took over. NBC wanted everyone to believe what they believed so they decided not to report the news. Instead, facts were replaced with opinions and <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Today Show </span>was replaced with a show that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">looked</span> remarkably similar, but <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">sounded</span> very different indeed. It was called <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Yesterday Show</span>. <div><br /></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Today Show </span>would report on new topics every morning, but <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The</span> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Yesterday Show </span>could not do this. Instead of hearing about current news events, viewers would now hear the same exact stories every single day. The show sounded something like this:</div><div><br /></div><div>"Good Morning! This is "today" January 30, 2009. I'm Meredith Viera and this is Matt Lauer. Let's take a look at stories making headlines:" </div><div> </div><div>Matt: "The failing economy is a result of the failed Bush Administration, but President Obama will fix it. Blah, blah, blah."</div><div><br /></div><div>Meredith: "Sarah Palin is a joke. Blah, blah, blah." </div><div><br /></div><div>Matt: "President Obama is awesomeness in human form. Blah, blah, blah." </div><div><br /></div><div>Meredith: "Michelle Obama will be the new "Mommy in Chief". Hahaha! Blah, blah, blah." </div><div><br /></div><div>Matt: "Now Ann will take a look at other news stories..."</div><div><br /></div><div>Ann: "The economy is really bad. Blah, blah, blah. The war continues as Americans struggle to keep their homes. Blah, blah, blah. Soon President Obama will put on his Superman cape and stop the fighting in the Middle East. Now here's Al with a look at the weather."</div><div><br /></div><div>Al: "Well, it looks like we will have some weather today. That's what's happening around the country. Here's what's happening in <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">your</span> neck of the woods."</div><div><br /></div><div>Unfortunately, people stopped watching <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">The Yesterday Show</span> because everyone knew what they would say. Americans actually wanted to hear <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">real </span>news, not just the same old blah, blah, blah day after day. Maybe someone should have told NBC before their empire collapsed. </div><div><br /></div><div>The End.</div><div><br /></div><div>Moral of the story: Telling the truth is good. </div><div><br /></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-59259658985023851292009-01-29T20:07:00.000-08:002009-02-01T18:38:51.430-08:00Crazy Little Thing Called Love<div>One of my best friends called me the other day to mourn the loss of her ex-boyfriend. (Apparently she felt a connection to me since I've made similar mistakes myself!) I think this guy is emotional baggage in human form, but obviously I'm biased towards her well-being. As she explained the story to me, I found myself having flashbacks to things I have said and done at one time or another. (Oh, love can be dangerously blind!!) After our two-hour conversation I felt an overwhelming desire to write this post. Below I have made a list of "warning signs" that I wish I had discovered earlier in my life. <br /></div><div><div><br /></div><div>If your boyfriend talks to his ex regularly and <font class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">swears </font>they are "just friends", listen to that voice inside that tells you there's something wrong. (That voice is there for a reason...<font class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"> </font>there<font class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"> IS </font>something wrong!)</div><div><br /></div><div>If you never hear from your love interest unless he's drunk or in trouble... RUN! Don't look back!! These guys never learn. They will suck all the life out of you. No matter how kind, loving, or loyal you think you are, they will always leave you broken-hearted. You can't be a therapist and a girlfriend at the same time... trust me, I would know!!</div><div><br /></div><div>So you've found the <font class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">perfect guy</font>. Everyone loves him and nobody ever has ANYTHING negative to say. (If it sounds too good to be true...IT IS!) It's been my experience that people who <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">never</span> ruffle feathers don't really know who they are. This is one of the MOST dangerous kinds of people to be involved with... PERIOD.</div><div><br /></div><div>When the wisest, most loyal people in your life don't approve of your significant other, hear them out. Typically these are the people in your life who know you best and love you most. (<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Yes, even more than your fabulous boyfriend!) </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span></div><div>If you always find yourself making excuses for your boyfriend - STOP! Whatever it is that your defending him for, let <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">him</span> work it out. Good men will eventually solve their own problems, and they take responsibility for them in the meantime.</div><div><br /></div><div>If you're discussing marriage, but your boyfriend keeps dodging the issue, he's buying time. This has nothing to do with finances or scheduling or any other excuse. Face it. He's just not that into you. It's not a fear of commitment - it's you. (I mean that in the most compassionate way possible.)</div><div><br /></div><div>Pretty much it comes down to this. If the man is not doing <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">everything </span>humanly possible to be with you, if he's <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">constantly</span> thinking of himself, and if there's <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">always </span>something more important than you (i.e. work, school, sports, friends, family, etc.) then take a deep breath, put on your big girl panties, and BREAK-UP with him! </div><div><br /></div><div>We don't have to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. It's possible for us to learn from the mistakes of others in order to save ourselves time and heartache. And there are GOOD guys out there who know what they want and go after it. (I'm married to one of them!) I'm not judging you. I've been in each of these situations at one time or another... I've even been in some of them twice! The truth is, love is difficult, but let's not make it any harder than it has to be. Good luck, and may the force by with you! </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-40154621633477683682009-01-28T11:18:00.000-08:002009-01-28T11:53:26.917-08:00So much to say!Last week I was having dinner with some friends who have an 8 year old son. As my friend was trying to get her energetic son into the car to leave, he begged and pleaded not to go. Finally he jumped back into the house and said, "Wait! Wait! I just have <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">so</span> much more to tell you!" I just died laughing!! It was like I was watching a little version of myself! So many words; so little time! <div><br /></div><div>I recently read a comment posted by a reader which got me thinking. My last several blogs have had a decidedly political tone to them. And while I strongly believe in the Christian community's obligation to stand up to our government (particularly when our current laws fly in the face of truth and justice), I don't believe that all of our efforts should be politically focused. What is so unique about the church is that we have the ability to reach far beyond the realm of the government. The church can actually impact the lives of individuals in specific communities around the world. </div><div><br /></div><div>At work last week, some colleagues and I were lamenting the lack of protection for children in our society. (Let me be clear. I do not work for a religious organization of any kind. However, all of us, from all kinds of backgrounds, see this as a big problem in our country.) Anyway, as we were talking we all came to the conclusion that regardless of our governments or agencies, true change will only come about if we are willing to go outside of our 8 to 5 professional world and allow our passion to enter into our <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">personal</span> lives. We cannot only care about the lives of others while we're "on the clock". We must be willing to embrace these beliefs as a <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">way of life</span>. </div><div><br /></div><div>Which brings me back to the church. If we are going to preach the words of Jesus Christ, then let us live out those words as well. Let's role up our sleeves and get our hands dirty doing real work for real people. If our goal is to simply give money or sing songs then <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">nothing </span>will happen. But what if we invited <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">those</span> people into our homes? Specifically, what if <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">we</span> used our time, money, and resources in order to adopt children in need? What if we opened our homes to foster children? What if we opened our lives to unwed single mothers? What if we just changed our lives instead of waiting for our government to do it for us? </div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-80587960307480589232009-01-26T17:43:00.000-08:002009-01-26T18:50:01.858-08:00Birth of a New Nation?Friday afternoon, While most of us were winding down from our long work week, our government (specifically our President) was preparing (and signing) legislation that would send <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">our</span> tax dollars overseas to fund "family planning" in foreign countries. That's right America, although we're broke and our nation is in a severe economic crisis, we have magically found millions of dollars to use in order to abort unwanted babies in third world countries. (Well thank heavens President Obama is going to end the war! I would hate for America to use tax dollars to shed innocent blood.)<div><br /></div><div>Let's put party politics aside for a moment. I don't think you need to be a conservative or a liberal to see the dichotomous thinking here. (You'd have to be blind <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">not</span> to see it!) Out of one side of his mouth President Obama speaks about values, integrity, honesty, and restoring the American people's trust in our government. However, he conveniently uses a sleepy Friday afternoon to reverse a controversial piece of legislation. Where was the mainstream media then? Is there even one of you who read a news report about this on Saturday morning? Did Matt Lauer or Katie Couric cover this on their cable news shows? I don't know about you, but that does very little to restore my hope in government. It gives me even less hope for the next four years.</div><div><br /></div><div>Do not misunderstand me. I <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">want</span> President Obama to lead our country with integrity. I desperately hope that we will look back and see that our 44th president was a man of honor who displayed leadership and humility. Unfortunately, it is this kind of power play that makes me feel <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">hopeless </span>instead of <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">hopeful</span>. I'm not even sure our President can articulate his views on human life. Does he believe that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">all </span>life is precious, or does it just apply to those with voices to speak? Does he believe in protecting <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">everyone</span> or only those who can stand up and fight? These are questions that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">deserve an answer.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span></div><div>Now, there's something else that we need to be aware of regarding family planning. President Obama is not the only one in our government that is a huge advocate for abortion and so called "women's rights". (Please keep in mind that I myself am a conservative feminist, so I'd be the first one to stand up for legitimate rights regarding women.) However, Nancy Pelosi and others in the democratic party are pushing for the Freedom of Choice Act. This is legislation that would open the floodgates, so to speak, on abortion rights. This includes, but is not limited to, partial birth abortion. </div><div><br /></div><div>As Christians, we are responsible for protecting the sanctity of life. If we choose to ignore this issue, no one else will address it. We cannot live our lives on auto pilot thinking that someone else will speak for us. God has given all of us the ability to speak so that we can defend those who have no voice. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Please, please, please</span> stand up for what is right.</div><div><br /></div><div>For more information on the Freedom of Choice Act, please visit the Fight FOCA website. You can also sign the petition against this bill while you're there!</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-26465700409934010652009-01-25T17:07:00.000-08:002009-01-25T17:45:16.581-08:00Reality CheckI don't mean to be a rain cloud, but I believe that our country needs a reality check. I just finished catching up on some news and it came to my attention that the individual who hung Sarah Palin in effigy in California was trying to sell part of his display on ebay. I'm not going to spend a great deal of time responding to this incident. Most Americans can distinguish between a respectable Halloween display and a hate crime. However, I believe there is something bigger going on here.<div><br /></div><div>All week we have been reading about the <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">hope </span>that President Obama has instilled in the American people. And yes, it is evident that there is an excitement in our country that typically accompanies a new leader. We all love a fresh start! Unfortunately, there are some things that President Obama will <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">never </span>be able to do for <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">any </span>of us. Let's take our friend in California for example. This is obviously a man filled with an unhealthy amount of anger. Regardless of our government officials or leaders, he cannot be made into joyful person. There are some things that simply must be done individually, and being responsible for our own attitudes and actions are two of those things. It is clear that cynicism and hatred have filled some of our neighbors for so long that they refuse to acknowledge the reality of their situation. No matter who our president is, we must choose today what we will stand for, what we will represent. If we choose hatred, then a newly elected official (no matter how promising or charismatic) cannot change that. </div><div><br /></div><div>It's time to wake up America. Mr. Obama is our president, but he can never be our savior. If we chose to be miserable when President Bush was in office, we will still be unhappy today, tomorrow, and every day that we choose anger over joy and hatred over forgiveness. Sarah Palin completed her job, and President Obama is doing his. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">It's time for us to do ours. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;"><br /></span></div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-32360553579351497962009-01-22T16:59:00.001-08:002009-01-22T18:20:04.368-08:00Talkin and WalkinToday marks the anniversary of Roe v. Wade. There aren't strong enough words to convey how detrimental this decision has been to our society. Now I realize that there are extreme right wing activists who have distorted the pro-life movement. (I do not under <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">any</span> circumstances support the taking of human life without direct provocation.) However, this is an issue that cannot be ignored no matter how unpopular it may be. I have given a tremendous amount of consideration to this situation and I have come to the following conclusions:<div><br /></div><div>Abortion is the biggest lie that Americans have ever been fed, and we have swallowed it hook, line, and sinker. For far too long we have blindly followed the Planned Parenthood "experts" and believed their propaganda as if it were gospel truth. The problem with this (as with any lie) is that it spins a web of deceit, and we are currently tangled in that web.</div><div><br /></div><div>I work with the economically and socially disenfranchised, so please know that I am not speaking thoughtlessly about things that I don't understand. Having said that, I believe that abortion is something used to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">bully </span>poor; scared minority women into eliminating their children so that our "civilized" society does not have to deal with the harsh reality that <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">we</span> have an obligation to these individuals as a community. We would rather close our eyes and wish this epidemic away instead of investing in the lives of <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">real</span> people who need <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">real</span> support.</div><div><br /></div><div>Not only is abortion detrimental to community, but it is also <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">the</span> reason that we have a culture of single mothers. Why would any man feel an obligation to provide for and protect a child that he has no legal rights to? Women wanting to put their child up for adoption are required (in most states) to attempt to contact the child's biological father. However, when it comes to ending that child's life, the father has <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">no say </span>in the matter. This is a complete contradiction! <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Logic </span>has no place in this decision; <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">Politics</span> has the power here! Because of this insanity, men have opted to have sex without any consequences... duh! Listen girls, we can't have our cake and eat it too. Which one is it? Do we want men to be involved or not? Right now our message is ridiculous. </div><div><br /></div><div>The biggest problem that abortion brings to the table is the lack of concern for human life. As much as the liberal; left-wing activists will claim that abortion is a "safe" and common procedure (see planned parenthood website), the reality is that this surgery can be physically dangerous to the mother and has a long term psychological impact. Our society is willing to look the other way while these lies are being spread, and slowly they have become commonplace in our culture. I mean pretty soon we won't have to take care of anyone... right? Babies cost to much so we abort them. Old people are unattractive and serve little functional purpose so we euthanize them. I think once upon a time their was another society like this... oh that's right it was called Nazi Germany. (And they say George W. Bush was a monster!) </div><div><br /></div><div>Let me get back to the point. The crazies on the right and left will never solve this problem! This is an issue that the Christian community MUST be willing to tackle. I know that there are thousands of you who are sickened by this atrocity, but <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">what </span>we willing to <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">do </span>about it? Do we support single mothers in our community? Do we advocate for crisis pregnancy centers or adoption agencies? Or better yet, do we adopt? The truth is that the world will believe our <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">talk</span> when they can actually <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">see</span> us <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">walk</span>. Just something to think about today.</div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-45662783852356652142009-01-20T18:03:00.000-08:002009-01-22T18:14:17.451-08:00A New DayAs of 12 o'clock today our country has a new president. In all fairness I must admit that I was not a Barack Obama supporter during the election. As you'll probably find out later in this blog, I have strong opinions that differ greatly at times from our newly elected official. However, President <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Obama</span> has officially been sworn in and he will now lead us... <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">all of us. </span>I hope that our country will do a better job in supporting our new president than we did over the last eight years. I personally believe that our entire nation will be held accountable for the injustice that we have done to the Bush family. We are so quick to judge the former president's actions, but not <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">one</span> of us would have traded places with him. Hopefully history will remember <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">everything</span> that former President Bush accomplished, both good and bad. It would be unfair for us to conveniently re-write history in order to serve our own selfish purposes. What would we have without the truth? <div><br /></div><div>This brings me to my point for today. Let's view this change in our country as an opportunity for the church to stand up and do what is right, what we are called by God to do. Let's support our leaders and pray for their wisdom, discernment, and righteousness. Change for the sake of change is no change at all. However, change that leads us to holiness will impact the world. Although President Obama can be the leader of a movement in our culture, he alone has very little ability to change our world. True change comes from the Body of Believers being faithful to God's call on our individual lives and in the world. Let's not repeat the same bipartisan rhetoric that we've heard over the last decade. Let's put our support <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">behind</span> our president <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">for </span>our God. It's time for God's people to make a stand for the one true Agent of Change. </div>courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8285033268541893741.post-6552512647208510282009-01-15T20:11:00.000-08:002009-01-15T20:23:16.332-08:00Welcome!I hate blogs. I understand your confusion. Why would I spend all this time <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">blogging</span> if in fact I hate blogs? Let me explain. I work closely with at-risk children and families. People in my office often hear me say things like, "If you wouldn't pass that information out to strangers on the street, why would you post it on the internet?" Unfortunately, I have seen the negative impact the internet can have when it's used for evil instead of good. However, there are times when I wish I <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">could</span> pass out <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">some </span>information on the street. I have good ideas! Seriously though, you won't read posts about what I ate for lunch or about how cute my new hairstyle looks on me. However, I will write about the things I am passionate about: politics, religion, faith, and family. I would be happy to have you join me. Please feel free to respond with feedback. (Honestly, if I had my way we'd be having these conversations face to face instead of cyberspace!)courtneyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03496725448862588559noreply@blogger.com2